I have now reached a period of my life when I can give dates. I left
Baltimore, and went to live with Master Thomas Auld, at St. Michael's, in
March, 1832. It was now more than seven years since I lived with him in
the family of my old master, on Colonel Lloyd's plantation. We of course
were now almost entire strangers to each other. He was to me a new master,
and I to him a new slave. I was ignorant of his temper and disposition; he
was equally so of mine. A very short time, however, brought us into full
acquaintance with each other. I was made acquainted with his wife not less
than with himself. They were well matched, being equally mean and cruel.
I was now, for the first time during a space of more than seven years, made
to feel the painful gnawings of hunger — a something which I had not experienced
before since I left Colonel Lloyd's plantation. It went hard enough with
me then, when I could look back to no period at which I had enjoyed a sufficiency.
It was tenfold harder after living in Master Hugh's family, where I had
always had enough to eat, and of that which was good. I have said Master
Thomas was a mean man. He was so. Not to give a slave enough to eat, is
regarded as the most aggravated development of meanness even among slaveholders.
The rule is, no matter how coarse the food, only let there be enough of
it. This is the theory; and in the part of Maryland from which I came, it
is the general practice, — though there are many exceptions. Master Thomas
enough of neither coarse nor fine food. There were four slaves of us in the kitchen — my sister Eliza, my aunt Priscilla, Henny, and myself; and we were allowed less than a half of a bushel of corn-meal per week, and very little else, either in the shape of meat or vegetables. It was not enough for us to subsist upon. We were therefore reduced to the wretched necessity of living at the expense of our neighbors. This we did by begging and stealing, whichever came handy in the time of need, the one being considered as legitimate as the other. A great many times have we poor creatures been nearly perishing with hunger, when food in abundance lay mouldering in the safe and smoke-house, and our pious mistress was aware of the fact; and yet that mistress and her husband would kneel every morning, and pray that God would bless them in basket and store!
Bad as all slaveholders are, we seldom meet one destitute of every element
of character commanding respect. My master was one of this rare sort. I
do not know of one single noble act ever performed by him. The leading
trait in his character was meanness; and if there were any other element in
his nature, it was made subject to this. He was mean; and, like most other
mean men, he lacked the ability to conceal his meanness. Captain Auld was
not born a slaveholder. He had been a poor man, master only of a Bay craft.
He came into possession of all his slaves by marriage; and of all men, adopted
slaveholders are the worst. He was cruel, but cowardly. He commanded without
firmness. In the enforcement of his rules, he was at times rigid, and at
times lax. At times, he spoke to his slaves with the firmness of Napoleon
and the fury of a demon; at other times, he might well be mistaken for an
inquirer who had lost his way. He did nothing of himself. He might
have passed for a lion, but for his ears. In all things noble which he attempted, his own meanness shone most conspicuous. His airs, words, and actions, were the airs, words, and actions of born slaveholders, and, being assumed, were awkward enough. He was not even a good imitator. He possessed all the disposition to deceive, but wanted the power. Having no resources within himself, he was compelled to be the copyist of many, and being such, he was forever the victim of inconsistency; and of consequence he was an object of contempt, and was held as such even by his slaves. The luxury of having slaves of his own to wait upon him was something new and unprepared for. He was a slaveholder without the ability to hold slaves. He found himself incapable of managing his slaves either by force, fear, or fraud. We seldom called him "master;" we generally called him "Captain Auld," and were hardly disposed to title him at all. I doubt not that our conduct had much to do with making him appear awkward, and of consequence fretful. Our want of reverence for him must have perplexed him greatly. He wished to have us call him master, but lacked the firmness necessary to command us to do so. His wife used to insist upon our calling him so, but to no purpose. In August, 1832, my master attended a Methodist camp-meeting held in the Bay-side, Talbot county, and there experienced religion. I indulged a faint hope that his conversion would lead him to emancipate his slaves, and that, if he did not do this, it would, at any rate, make him more kind and humane. I was disappointed in both these respects. It neither made him to be humane to his slaves, nor to emancipate them. If it had any effect on his character, it made him more cruel and hateful in all his ways; for I believe him to have been a much worse man after his conversion than before. Prior
to his conversion, he relied upon his own depravity to shield and sustain him in his savage barbarity; but after his conversion, he found religious sanction and support for his slaveholding cruelty. He made the greatest pretensions to piety. His house was the house of prayer. He prayed morning, noon, and night. He very soon distinguished himself among his brethren, and was soon made a class-leader and exhorter. His activity in revivals was great, and he proved himself an instrument in the hands of the church in converting many souls. His house was the preachers' home. They used to take great pleasure in coming there to put up; for while he starved us, he stuffed them. We have had three or four preachers there at a time. The names of those who used to come most frequently while I lived there, were Mr. Storks, Mr. Ewery, Mr. Humphry, and Mr. Hickey. I have also seen Mr. George Cookman at our house. We slaves loved Mr. Cookman. We believed him to be a good man. We thought him instrumental in getting Mr. Samuel Harrison, a very rich slaveholder, to emancipate his slaves; and by some means got the impression that he was laboring to effect the emancipation of all the slaves. When he was at our house, we were sure to be called in to prayers. When the others were there, we were sometimes called in and sometimes not. Mr. Cookman took more notice of us than either of the other ministers. He could not come among us without betraying his sympathy for us, and, stupid as we were, we had the sagacity to see it.
While I lived with my master in St. Michael's, there was a white young
man, a Mr. Wilson, who proposed to keep a Sabbath school for the instruction
of such slaves as might be disposed to learn to read the New Testament.
We met but three times, when Mr. West and Mr. Fairbanks, both class-leaders,
with many others, came upon us with sticks and other missiles, drove us off, and forbade us to meet again. Thus ended our little Sabbath school in the pious town of St. Michael's.
I have said my master found religious sanction for his cruelty. As an example, I will state one of many facts going to prove the charge. I have seen him tie up a lame young woman, and whip her with a heavy cowskin upon her naked shoulders, causing the warm red blood to drip; and, in justification of the bloody deed, he would quote this passage of Scripture — "He that knoweth his master's will, and doeth it not, shall be beaten with many stripes."
Master would keep this lacerated young woman tied up in this horrid situation
four or five hours at a time. I have known him to tie her up early in the
morning, and whip her before breakfast; leave her, go to his store, return
at dinner, and whip her again, cutting her in the places already made raw
with his cruel lash. The secret of master's cruelty toward "Henny" is found
in the fact of her being almost helpless. When quite a child, she fell into
the fire, and burned herself horribly. Her hands were so burnt that she
never got the use of them. She could do very little but bear heavy burdens.
She was to master a bill of expense; and as he was a mean man, she was
a constant offence to him. He seemed desirous of getting the poor girl out
of existence. He gave her away once to his sister; but, being a poor gift,
she was not disposed to keep her. Finally, my benevolent master, to use
his own words, "set her adrift to take care of herself." Here was a recently-converted
man, holding on upon the mother, and at the same time turning out her helpless
child, to starve and die! Master Thomas was one of the many pious slaveholders
who hold slaves for the very charitable purpose of taking care of them.
My master and myself had quite a number of differences. He found me unsuitable
to his purpose. My city life, he said, had had a very pernicious effect
upon me. It had almost ruined me for every good purpose, and fitted me for
every thing which was bad. One of my greatest faults was that of letting
his horse run away, and go down to his father-in-law's farm, which was about
five miles from St. Michael's. I would then have to go after it. My reason
for this kind of carelessness, or carefulness, was, that I could always get
something to eat when I went there. Master William Hamilton, my master's
father-in-law, always gave his slaves enough to eat. I never left there
hungry, no matter how great the need of my speedy return. Master Thomas
at length said he would stand it no longer. I had lived with him nine months,
during which time he had given me a number of severe whippings, all to no
good purpose. He resolved to put me out, as he said, to be broken; and,
for this purpose, he let me for one year to a man named Edward Covey. Mr.
Covey was a poor man, a farm-renter. He rented the place upon which he
lived, as also the hands with which he tilled it. Mr. Covey had acquired
a very high reputation for breaking young slaves, and this reputation was
of immense value to him. It enabled him to get his farm tilled with much
less expense to himself than he could have had it done without such a reputation.
Some slaveholders thought it not much loss to allow Mr. Covey to have their
slaves one year, for the sake of the training to which they were subjected,
without any other compensation. He could hire young help with great ease,
in consequence of this reputation. Added to the natural good qualities of
Mr. Covey, he was a professor of religion — a pious soul — a member and
a class-leader in the Methodist church. All of this added weight to
his reputation as a "nigger-breaker." I was aware of all the facts, having been made acquainted with them by a young man who had lived there. I nevertheless made the change gladly; for I was sure of getting enough to eat, which is not the smallest consideration to a hungry man.