Sketch of my Parentage.—Early separation from my Mother.—
I was born May 1815, of a slave mother, in Shelby County, Kentucky, and
was claimed as the property of David White Esq. He came into possession of
my mother long before I was born. I was brought up in the Counties of Shelby,
Henry, Oldham, and Trimble. Or, more correctly speaking, in the above counties,
I may safely say, I was flogged up; for where I should
have received moral, mental, and religious instruction, I received stripes
without number, the object of which was to degrade and keep me in subordination.
I can truly say, that I drank deeply of the bitter cup of suffering and woe.
I have been drag-
ged down to the lowest depths of human degradation and wretchedness, by Slaveholders.
My mother was known by the name of Milldred Jackson. She is the mother of seven slaves only, all being sons, of whom I am the eldest. She was also so fortunate or unfortunate, as to have some of what is called the slaveholding blood flowing in her veins. I know not how much; but not enough to prevent her children though fathered by slaveholders, from being bought and sold in the slave markets of the South. It is almost impossible for slaves to give a correct account of their male parentage. All that I know about it is, that my mother informed me that my fathers name was James Bibb. He was doubtless one of the present Bibb family of Kentucky; but I have no personal knowledge of him at all, for he died before my recollection.
The first time I was separated from my mother, I was young and small. I knew nothing of my condition then as a slave. I was living with Mr. White whose wife died and left him a widower with one little girl, who was said to be the legitimate owner of my mother, and all her children. This girl was also my playmate when we were children.
I was taken away from my mother, and hired out to labor for various persons,
eight or ten years in succession; and all my wages were expended for the education
of Harriet White, my playmate. It was then my sorrows and sufferings commenced.
It was then I first commenced seeing and feeling that I was a wretched slave,
compelled to work under the lash without wages, and often without
clothes enough to hide my nakedness. I have often worked without half enough to eat, both late and early, by day and by night. I have often laid my wearied limbs down at night to rest upon a dirt floor, or a bench, without any covering at all, because I had no where else to rest my wearied body, after having worked hard all the day. I have also been compelled in early life, to go at the bidding of a tyrant, through all kinds of weather, hot or cold, wet or dry, and without shoes frequently, until the month of December, with my bare feet on the cold frosty ground, cracked open and bleeding as I walked. Reader, believe me when I say, that no tongue, nor pen ever has or can express the horrors of American Slavery. Consequently I despair in finding language to express adequately the deep feeling of my soul, as I contemplate the past history of my life. But although I have suffered much from the lash, and for want of food and raiment; I confess that it was no disadvantage to be passed through the hands of so many families, as the only source of information that I had to enlighten my mind, consisted in what I could see and hear from others. Slaves were not allowed books, pen, ink, nor paper, to improve their minds. But it seems to me now, that I was particularly observing, and apt to retain what came under my observation. But more especially, all that I heard about liberty and freedom to the slaves, I never forgot. Among other good trades I learned the art of running away to perfection. I made a regular business of it, and never gave it up, until I had broken the bands of slavery,
and landed myself safely in Canada, where I was regarded as a man, and not as a thing.
The first time in my life that I ran away, was for ill treatment, in 1825.
I was living with a Mr. Vires, in the village of Newcastle. His wife was a
very cross woman. She was every day flogging me, boxing, pulling my ears,
and scolding, so that I dreaded to enter the room where she was. This first
started me to running away from them. I was often gone several days before
I was caught. They would abuse me for going off, but it did no good. The next
time they flogged me, I was off again; but after awhile they got sick of their
bargain, and returned me back into the hands of my owners. By this time Mr.
White had married his second wife. She was what I call a tyrant. I lived with
her several months, but she kept me almost half of my time in the woods, running
from under the bloody lash. While I was at home she kept me all the time rubbing
furniture, washing, scrubbing the floors; and when I was not doing this, she
would often seat herself in a large rocking chair, with two pillows about
her, and would make me rock her, and keep off the flies. She was too lazy
to scratch her own head, and would often make me scratch and comb it for her.
She would at other times lie on her bed, in warm weather, and make me fan
her while she slept, scratch and rub her feet; but after awhile she got sick
of me, and preferred a maiden servant to do such business. I was then hired
out again; but by this time I had become much better skilled in running away,
make calculation to avoid detection, by taking with me a bridle. If any body should see me in the woods, as they have, and asked “what are you doing here sir? you are a runaway?”—I said, “no, sir, I am looking for our old mare;” at other times, “looking for our cows.” For such excuses I was let pass. In fact, the only weapon of self defence that I could use successfully, was that of deception. It is useless for a poor helpless slave, to resist a white man in a slaveholding State. Public opinion and the law is against him; and resistance in many cases is death to the slave, while the law declares, that he shall submit or die.
The circumstances in which I was then placed, gave me a longing desire
to be free. It kindled a fire of liberty within my breast which has never
yet been quenched. This seemed to be a part of my nature; it was first revealed
to me by the inevitable laws of nature's God. I could see that the All-wise
Creator, had made man a free, moral, intelligent and accountable being; capable
of knowing good and evil. And I believed then, as I believe now, that every
man has a right to wages for his labor; a right to his own wife and children;
a right to liberty and the pursuit of happiness; and a right to worship God
according to the dictates of his own conscience. But here, in the light of
these truths, I was a slave, a prisoner for life; I could possess nothing,
nor acquire anything but what must belong to my keeper. No one can imagine
my feelings in my reflecting moments, but he who has himself been a slave.
Oh! I have often wept over my con-
dition, while sauntering through the forest, to escape cruel punishment.
“No arm to protect me from tyrants aggression;
The term slave to this day sounds with terror to my soul,—a word too obnoxious to speak—a system too intolerable to be endured. I know this from long and sad experience. I now feel as if I had just been aroused from sleep, and looking back with quickened perception at the state of torment from whence I fled. I was there held and claimed as a slave; as such I was subjected to the will and power of my keeper, in all respects whatsoever. That the slave is a human being, no one can deny. It is his lot to be exposed in common with other men, to the calamities of sickness, death, and the misfortunes incident to life. But unlike other men, he is denied the consolation of struggling against external difficulties, such as destroy the life, liberty, and happiness of himself and family. A slave may be bought and sold in the market like an ox. He is liable to be sold off to a distant land from his family. He is bound in chains hand and foot; and his sufferings are aggravated a hundred fold, by the terrible thought, that he is not allowed to struggle against misfortune, corporeal punishment, insults and outrages committed upon himself and family; and he is not allowed to help himself, to resist or escape the blow, which he sees impending over him.
This idea of utter helplessness, in perpetual bondage, is the more distressing, as there is no period even with the remotest generation when it shall terminate.